For anyone going through hardship or a loss, and don’t know how to go about dealing with it, I’m here to lend an ear and give my advice. I have lost someone very important to me. When I was (technically) Fourteen, I lost my mother. It was by far the hardest time in my life. I couldn’t do anything without crying and when it came time to talk about it, or walk down the halls at school and hear everyone say, “I’m sorry”, or ask how I was, I couldn’t handle it. How do you deal with a loss? It’s a really hard thing. Still to this day I get choked up on the subject. That’s why I plan on always being there for my daughter. I don’t want her to have my life. Feeling like you have no one. There are just some things you only talk to your mom about. You can’t just run to a friend or your dad.. Usually when you don’t have your mother to lean on, you tend to lean on your spouse, boyfriend etc.. Well, I guess that’s why I make such a big deal about relationships. I always felt as if I needed someone to fill her void. Of course, every girl wants to feel loved. All I’m saying is that I am here. I know it may not mean a lot, but sometimes it takes talking to someone (or maybe even someone you don’t know) to really help you. I may not be the best mother or the wisest and I haven’t been a mother for VERY long, but I’m here for anyone in need.

Wish she was still here. I’ve always been one to, “Vivere Senza Rimpianti” (Live Life without Regrets- for those of you who don’t know Italian- also a tattoo of mine) but lately I’ve been losing sleep over a decision I made almost a year ago (8months to be exact) and I really wish she was here to talk to. Or maybe a “undo” button. /: Can’t sleep.

Don’t judge a book by it’s cover. You don’t know what people are going through, unless you are in fact that person.

(Source: jessikaisamazing)